Winter is past, the rain is over and gone. The flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come… (Song of Songs 2:11)
I don’t get visions every day. I didn’t expect one this morning. A vision seems very spiritual. I used to look at them as a badge of approval. You know, God is really happy with me, so He slaps a vision on me.
Not so much.
I was just singing, worshipping in church on a Sunday morning. I closed my eyes because it helps me focus. I saw me holding out a ring. It wasn’t a huge ring. It was smaller than a hoola-hoop, but larger than a bicycle rim.
I don’t know what the ring was or why I held it in front of me. As soon as I did, the Lord jumped into the ring. It shattered all around with the enormity of Him.
I shouted on the inside, “Yes! Come, Lord, and burst my expectations! Break through my capacity with the largeness of You!”
But really… How does that happen?
A ring can represent a lot of things. It can be a sign of covenant or commitment. It can be a symbol of authority, like a signet ring in the hands of a king. It can even be a circumference of influence, lined out with careful boundaries.
A loving father gave his son, the prodigal, a ring.
The son wasted his inheritance and was heading home in disgrace. He wasn’t coming back as a son. He came as an indentured servant, so he could pay off his debt.
He faced Kezazah, a ceremonial banishment. It is translated, “the cutting off.”
A clay pot filled with burnt beans was broken at the feet of the one who had strayed. It represented a unified boot out of the community. No business, no friendships, ostracized in every way.
But someone jumped into the middle of that ring.
His dad caught sight of him and ran without hesitation toward his son. Not the dignified lop of a middle-aged pillar of the community. But a sweaty, robe-lifted over the legs, sleeves-flapping in the wind kind of sprint.
When they met face to face, he kissed his son over and over. Not the Aunt Dorothy peck on the cheek. These were kisses and tears all jumbled up and spilling over in love without words.
Daddy prepared his servants ahead of time. They covered the stinky son with his best robe. They slipped shoes over calloused, road weary, bleeding feet. Shoes for a son, not a slave. The signet ring slipped on his hand guaranteed he could come home and make a living.
There would be no Kezazah. Daddy made sure of that.
Humility flows out of a generous heart. It flows out of love. The orphan can’t afford to forgive, can’t afford humility. It costs more than he has.
The prodigal’s daddy had a resource bigger than his own. It was okay to hike up his robe and run like an aging track star amid the aghast frowns of neighbors who wondered what happened to their friend.
Love happened, that’s what.
Love so generous, it became an indelible picture on the heart of his son.
That’s how my circle is expanded. The love of my Father just runs up and jumps in my arms. He explodes my self-contained limitations. He ruins my careful excuses and justifications. He embraces the filth of my misplaced affections and soaks me in His fragrance.
This love is so engrafted I don’t have to dip into orphan resources again. I run with abandon and discover that limitless love runs faster toward me than I can to it.
So much more than I expected. So much sweeter.
The winter is past. Do I dare believe it?
I’m watching for Him. I’m expecting Him in unexpected ways, extravagant, unafraid of my doubts and undeterred by my messes.
He’s coming – sooner than I think.
See, you do know how to let character grow through reflection! You’ve been doing it all along.
I’ve been thinking about a villain’s arc. If it’s the same as growth, it might be extremely hard to do. Growth allows the reader to empathize and complicates the character. It’s why we have to make our enemy the devil, someone that deserves no excuses. But, Clarence, since he is just a boy, he’s someone who deserves compassion. It just makes things complicated. Bob Ewell, on the other hand, is bad to the bone because I don’t even care what kind of pain he’s suffered in life that might be used as an excuse.
Your blogs do work, my dear. They stimulate reflection, and reflection isn’t always shared until much later. It has to be figured out first, but it does lead to character growth.
Much love, Mary
P. S. Larry and I discussed other authors who’ve tackled similar characters and situations. Winter’s Bone by Daniel Woodrell, who’s an author of the Ozarks. He deals with the basest of human motivations and the bravest. In this novel the protagonist is a young girl trying to find her dad in the midst of meth. labs, generational poverty, and the backwoods. Woodrell is dark and compelling and hauntingly good (in our opinion of course). Larry also remembered Carson McCullers who wrote The Heart is a Lonely Hunter and The Member of the Wedding among others, and of course, there’s To Kill a Mockingbird .
Wow – I’m at the library, getting ready to work on Missy. I never thought about the reflection in my blog relating to character development. That is very cool. Also, I like that Missy has compassion for the antagonist. That is one of her strengths. Not that she can trust him, but she sees the mix and understands how it can happen. She’s seen a bit of it in Pa..
I love, love your insights. Haven’t read Winter’s Bone, but will find it. Also The Member of the Wedding. Thanks for the assignments and the encouragement!
I love you, dear!!
Thank you for sharing the precious
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Thanks, dear friend!! Still meditating on that shattered ring. 🙂